My Angel Malachi

In the diaries of many of the Saints of our Church we learn that they knew their guardian angels by name and had a personal relationship with them. Saint Padre Pio would often call his angel and send him on specific missions on his behalf. St Jose Maria Escriva, exhorted, as a spiritual father to his children in God’s work of Opus Dei, that we love our angels and be filled with gratitude towards them for their enduring kindness and unfailing assistance to us from the moment of our conception through our passage into eternal life as personal guardians given to us by our loving Heavenly Father. Our Church proposes this daily prayer, “Prayer to the Guardian Angels”:

Angel of God, our guardian dear To whom God’s love commits us, here Ever this day be at our side, To light and guard To rule and guide.

For most of my life, I did not know that I had a guardian angel. When I entered the Church in 2004 I began reciting the Church’s prayer. Sometimes, although not as often as I should, I prayed from my heart thanking my guardian angel for his lifetime of service to me as I considered the awesome reality of his invisible presence. After a while, in an effort be more personal with my guardian angel I gave him a name.

One day about six months ago, after holy Mass, a lady named Victoria from the church I am now attending came up to speak with me. Our conversation turned to the topic of guardian angels. I told her that I had given a name to my guardian angel. She tilted her head and listened to the Holy Spirit. Then she looked at me and said boldly, “that’s not the name of your guardian angel. His name is Malachi.” Amazed at her forthrightness, I asked her, “Are you sure? She responded confidently, “I am absolutely sure. His name is Malachi.” I was familiar with the name Malachi from the book which bears his name in the Bible. Yet, neither Victoria nor I knew the Hebrew meaning of the name Malachi.

The next day I called Marianne, my partner in the work of this blog and website and shared with her what Victoria had told me. Marianne who has lived for more than 30 years in Israel is fluent in Hebrew. I asked her the meaning of “Malachi.” I was amazed when she told me that “Malachi” means, “my angel”! We rejoiced as we considered how the Holy Spirit had revealed the name of my guardian angel through Victoria. I also looked up the meaning of this name and found this: From the Hebrew name îÇìÀàÈëÄé (Mal'akhiy) meaning "my messenger" or "my angel". This is one of the twelve minor prophets of the Old Testament, the author of the Book of Malachi, which some claim foretells the coming of Christ.

Sometime later, Victoria and I, having become friends, met for breakfast at a local diner. Unexpectedly, Victoria received another revelation from the Holy Spirit about “Malachi.” Without hesitation she told me, “Your angel Malachi will come to you before Christmas.” It was less than two weeks before Christmas 2011 when she said this to me. Could she really have heard this from the Holy Spirit, I wondered to myself. So I asked her, “How will he come to me?” She replied that she did not know. Then she added, “Perhaps you will see him, or maybe he will appear in a dream or in some other way.” She spoke with such conviction, that I believed her. She then added that my angel would “help you in your apostolate.” After she spoke those words to me about “apostolate” I recalled that strange day of October 7, 2007 when I was confronted by a mysterious stranger - a “messenger” from the Lord who spoke to me as no one had ever spoken to me before.

At the time of our breakfast Victoria knew nothing about my earlier encounter with this “messenger.” Just before Christmas, I received a call from Marianne from Israel. She told me that she was very anxious to speak with me that morning because during the night she had had a dream about my angel! She told me: “I feel strongly that the Holy Spirit wants you to write the account about your angel”. She was referring to the unusual encounter I had on October 7, 2007 at the World Apostolate of Our Lady of Fatima Shrine with the mysterious messenger. When Marianne’s dream fulfilled the prophecy of Victoria, I then understood that the messenger at the Shrine had been my angel Malachi! He had indeed come to me to “help me in my apostolate.” To better tell this story to you, I reread the account of it that I had written in my spiritual journey two days after it took place. Below, I include some excerpts and summations from my diary dated October 9, 2007:

….You are so patient and kind Lord Jesus, and to help me hear You and overcome my hesitation, You sent a prophet to guide me. …. Your messenger….to the Blue Army Shrine of the Immaculate Conception of Mary on the Feast of the Holy Rosary on October 7, who spoke mysteriously and boldly to me about what You expected of me. Through him I heard Your voice. He seemed to speak with Your authority. It is because of this unusual conversation with Your messenger that I now with determination set out to accomplish that which You are calling me to do.

This is the account of the conversation between Your messenger and me: Unintentionally, I arrived late for Mass at the Shrine. Seeing the bishop and the congregation standing and singing the Alleluias before the proclamation of the Gospel, I ran from my car as quickly as possible and found the first vacant place at the very back of the open air sanctuary which was full on account of it being the Feast of the Holy Rosary. I felt anxious about having arrived late for Mass. I had made the decision at the last moment to journey to the Shrine instead of going to my own church. I thought the mass would begin at 12 noon. Now I see that this is Your doing Lord, - a prompting from the Holy Spirit - as You had wanted for me to be at that place. As I came into the sanctuary I realized I had been mistaken about the time that Mass would begin. I took my place, and said to myself quietly, “I thought the Mass would start at 12 o’clock noon.” A tall dark-skinned man who was standing next to me whispered back: “The Lord knows!” His words gave me a great peace and joy and I no longer felt anxious about having arrived late.

At the end of the Mass, the big man turned, took hold of my arm as if to lead me somewhere, and said: “You are not seated here by accident!” As the tall brown man began to lead me out from under the open air sanctuary towards the path that circled the large grounds, he continued: “You have the joy of the Holy Spirit!” He spoke with such a tone of authority. It seemed to me that I was hearing You, Lord! The messenger continued and his next words astounded me. He said to me: “The Lord has commanded you to write and you have been procrastinating.” He was correct. But how did he know this about me?

I had been hearing the Lord asking me to write for a long time and I had been procrastinating. It was truthful what the big man had just told me. I realized that he could only know this truth if the Holy Spirit had revealed this to him. The Lord had used many people in different ways for so many years to speak to me on His behalf, to reveal His will for me. Even my own oncologist, witnessing the supernatural joy that sustained me through all my cancer journey had asked me many months earlier to write and share with him the reason for my joy… meaning, a testimony of my faith. In fact, I had kept the doctor waiting for more than eight months until ultimately I wrote him a letter on September 30, 2007 finally giving him what he had asked for. I had procrastinated terribly. And this was only a week ago! So the big stranger’s words were accurate and I felt a sense of holy fear in his presence that he should know such things about me.

While it was a strong rebuke, the messenger said it to me in a kind manner. Then he added: “All that has been given to you is not for you to keep but to be shared.” Then he told me very tenderly: “You know you will suffer very much.” And he added: “you do not have all the time in the world to do it.” I did not know what to say in reply to these amazing words. I was overwhelmed. He continued: “St. Therese, St. Faustina and Sister Lucia of Fatima were commanded to write. You are also commanded to write and just as the Lord said to St. Faustina, ‘How long shall I put up with you?’ the Lord is saying the same to you. If you do not write it all down, the Lord will hold you accountable!” I was astounded at his words. He could not know, except by the Lord, that I had just recently been given a gift of St. Faustina’s diary. I had read only a few pages of the book by then. Yet, I had just read those exact words that the Lord spoke to St Faustina, “How long shall I put up with you and how long will you keep putting Me off?” I was filled with awe.

I know that You Lord desire to save souls. I understand that my writing will be an instrument for You in drawing souls to Yourself. Oh dear Lord, I want more than anything in life for souls to know You, love You, trust You, and desire You! How happy they could be in knowing You and loving You and feeling Your wonderful love as I do! If I can participate in Your saving work with my writing, I thank You from the depths of my being. Upon saying these words to me which I have written above, the messenger led me up the path towards the Statue of Our Blessed Mother – “Our Lady of the Life Within.” As we reached the top of the walk he said, “You cannot even imagine what the Lord will do with what you write.” He told me that I must simply be obedient and begin to write as the Lord has commanded me and that Jesus would make it “spread abroad.” The messenger then excused himself leaving me standing under a big shady tree on the lawn to the left of the walking path while he went up further to go before the huge statue of Our Blessed Mother. It was evident to me that he was in prayer speaking with Her.

He joined me after a little while and said, “I am sorry for being so long”. As we continued walking down the path towards the Sanctuary situated at the bottom of the hill he spoke to me some more about the “things to come” in my spiritual journey, personal life and the writing apostolate. The messenger warned me of some hard trials that were coming and reassured me that I would receive a “great grace” from the Lord. The messenger’s prophesies so far have been accurate, although not all have yet been fulfilled. (End of diary excerpts) The heavy crosses came immediately after Malachi forewarned me and so did the great graces he told me the Lord would provide me. One of the very painful trials warned of by Malachi caused our family to move suddenly to Israel that year. But just as Malachi told me, if I would be obedient and simply begin to write, the Lord would do the rest and Jesus would “make it go abroad.”

I began writing immediately after I encountered Malachi. This consisted of my keeping a personal journal of the conversations Jesus and I had when I went before Him in the Blessed Sacrament. I put the typed pages into a binder and kept them private. I did this for many months and the binder became full. Our family moved to Israel. Then one day, through the Lord’s arrangement, I met Marianne in Jerusalem. I began going to holy Mass with her on Sundays at a monastery outside of Jerusalem called Latrun. I drove the hour from my town on the coast to her inland village - a kibbutz - where she had been living for more than 33 years having emigrated from Holland when she was a teenager. She had experienced her profound conversion to Our Lord Jesus Christ in Israel some years before. You can read her testimony in this Blog and Website under “Testimonials.” She too has encountered her own guardian angel, Omriel, whom the Lord sent to visit her at her little cottage in the kibbutz to draw her back to Himself.

After Mass we would drive towards Jerusalem and have lunch together at En Kerem, the place of the “Visitation” where Our Blessed Mother Mary proclaimed her “Magnificat” to God. One Sunday looking from the balcony of the restaurant where Marianne and I usually shared our lunch fellowship we gazed together at the golden domed roof of one of the beautiful churches in the village and inspired by the Holy Spirit in that moment, Marianne suggested that she could build a website to host the amazing accounts of what the Lord had done in my life. She told me that I should begin to write them down so the world could know of the Lord’s grace at work in just an ordinary soul who loves Him and is loved by Him. In this way souls who do not yet know Jesus as their Savior can come to know, love and trust in Him; and those souls who already have a relationship with Our Lord can be further encouraged in their faith in and walk with Him.

Indeed, in our brief new friendship, Marianne and I had shared with each other our own stories of how the Lord had been working in our individual lives. Yet, I would have never considered asking Marianne to make a website as a platform for my personal testimonies. When I heard her suggestion, I was overjoyed. Together, we were filled with the joy of the Holy Spirit as we both realized that this spontaneous offer from Marianne arose from the desire of Jesus’ Sacred Heart. The going forth of the witness to Jesus through this writing apostolate had been foretold by the mysterious “messenger” who came to me in 2007 before I even moved to Israel or could ever imagine that I would be living in the Holy Land or that I would have met Marianne! In that precise moment we both had a sudden and delightful epiphany that Our Lord had brought all things together to make this amazing moment happen. He had ordered all things to come to this precise point where He would unite in a divinely- appointed partnership the unique, God-given talents of Marianne and Ann to inaugurate this writing apostolate for His glory. He had foretold it through his messenger, whom I now know is my angel Malachi, who also told me, “You cannot even imagine what the Lord will do with what you write.”

My angel Malachi has always been with me and he will always stay with me until I am safe in the arms of Jesus in Heaven. Your guardian angel is always there with you too, guiding and protecting you. The Lord also has a mission just for you - a destiny - that He has purposed before all time just for you. If you love Him and trust Him He will reveal His plan for you and make you fruitful. You too “do not have all the time in the world to do it!”